Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Invested time

I will try to keep this post short,

I really want to thank all that invested time in me, All those late night cups of coffee and ice cream eating sessions.

Or maybe long phone calls or chats online. Cool chill outs at DQ, Papa Johns or Jasmis. Long drives or walks in the souq.

Or checking out good looking khabas guys.... It all means a lot to me.

So I just need to thank all those that invested time in me in 2007, before 2007 ends.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Thinking out loud

Reflecting Back .. just some random thoughts

Sitting at my desk at work, counting down the days before the year ends, I am really thankful as to how this year has turned out.

Currently listening to Orinoco flow by Enya, work will end in about an Hour. After that I have a mid term and extra classes. Currently my schedule is over packed with alot of things to do.

Thinking back, the year was filled with alot of memorable occasions, more like memorable places or conversations that I can always go back to reflect on. When the year began the only 2 goals I set for myself are to get my license and to try and find sponsorship for university. I am sad to admit that I did not do both, however the time I spent doing alot of other things, to me right now I feel was well worth it.

Now my year is ending, what really happened last year shouldn't really matter right? Or should it?

I guess I should sit with myself on the 31st and have a big reflect ... I should probably use the eid holidays to set expectations and goals for myself for next year ... and oh yeah the license and the sponsorship are 2 of the many things I should do.

So hats off to a rocky 07 ... 41 days left for me to enjoy the year.

Monday, September 3, 2007

IC 2007

This could be long ….

My First IC Experience started with me waiting in the airport for 9 hours to be picked up by the CC (Congress Committee). Fortunately I had met up with the Sri Lankan IC Delegates and the You Can Brazil delegates as well, so the wait without food or sleep was bearable.

Being in Turkey challenged me in many different ways. It was mostly about self realization, coming to terms with what I am not capable of doing and how can I improve myself. It's weird because being at IC, I could definitely say that I was really frustrated and very happy at the same time. Frustration could have been due to some sort of cultural shock, but IC was truly an interesting experience. An over all "great" in my books.

Some sessions weren't very interesting, but some I enjoyed. My highlight of IC was meeting amazing people and having amazing conversations with them. On the last Day of the conference I had an amazing conversation with the current 07/08 VP X. It was one hell of a conversation for me to speak to someone who is so passionate about Exchange. That’s motivation stamped all over me.

The country that I felt in love with is Malta, The Maltase where just so easy to get along with. That is one new country I want to visit in the near future. I am also very proud of the Bahraini Delegation. I Think they really represented Bahrain in the Best Manner. A country That I also Admire is Germany for the efforts they are putting into expanding into the middle east. I think they are doing an amazing Job.

Of coarse this is no all I have to say about IC. But its just an overview of what my IC experience was like and what are my main feelings about IC.

Monday, July 23, 2007

University Finals, AIESEC and Work
Busy, Happy and Sick .....

8 more days to august ... can wait to see what suprises August has for me

Thursday, July 19, 2007

If I could sing out a song right now for you, Just explain how im feeling it would be Wind by Akeboshi .. lyric are below

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't try with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't try with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

July started with me saying goodbye to 3 amazing people. I guess this is the hardest part of AIESEC to say goodbye to people and to thank people about the effect they had in your life.

To John, Claude and Lyna, Thank you for the impact you had in my life, and good luck in the next steps of your lives, you have my support.

Words can't express my feelings towards the 3 of you.

June

The 3 days in June I would remember

26th June - First Day of Natco, Skipping the whole amazing day and going to the highlight of that day. For me it was receiving a recognition, I accidentally saw my name just before they where going to be announcing the final recognition and I had no idea that I was being considered, hearing all those amazing things being said to me and having the guys behind me whispering things to me clam me down .. It was great.

27th June - Second Day of Natco, our guest speaker (Amal) was amazing. Reflecting back on the day my only thoughts of the day where I am going to work on my presentation skills until they reach Amal's level and I will do my best a VP X.

28th June - Last Day of Natco, reality started to sink in today, I was extremely nervous about allocation of people into teams, I think in the end I got an amazing X Team, I said goodbye to a few X members but I'm welcoming in a lot. There are a lot of memories on that day, mostly ones of when I first start AIESEC. We ended the day with singing like mad, just one of those time I can look across the room and actually feel comfortable with the people around me.

Thursday, June 7, 2007

2 years in Infocall!

Today the 7th of June 2007 I have officially completed working in Infocall for 2 years. For those who do not know, Infocall is the first and only company I have worked with .. So completing 2 whole years with Infocall means that I have successfully been independent for 2 years!

Thinking back, these past 2 years have taught me a lot ... I have been tested in so many ways ... and every time I was angry and every time I taught I could not handling the stress, the pressure or the problems I would stop take an hour to clear my head and continue. I have no idea what made me continue… It has been the toughest 2 years of my life and now sitting here my only thought is yes I have made it through 2 years, yes I can do this. I AM doing fine...

But I have to admit it has been an amazing 2 years, dispute the ugly side of the 2 years there where happy times and I did learn a lot, and I am thankful.

There are people that I just have to mention today ...

1) Roydon - An excellent Boss and friend
2) Mark - Exactly the Same as Roydon
3) Daryl - A fellow team member ... The person who I sit and trouble every morning ..
4) Rana - I knew better by working with you than I did in school .. I will miss you when you leave
5) Jomaya - I know you for 11 years!!!! we where in class together now we work together
6) Safiya - Safiya your an idiot ... but I admire your strength your a survivor .
Lastly
7) Shuhrah - Yeah your cool .. your completely different that what I thought you where

We have 3 new additions to the team Hala, Eman and Arif .. looking forward to getting to know these people ....

My Infocall team ... the people that see me 10 hours a day straight .... Im glad I got to know and work with you all ....

Reflecting Back

This post is just to reflect back on the previous 5 months of this year ...
It's June now .. the 6th month of the year which means that there are only 6 months left for the year to end ... How has the year been so far?

Lets Find out …

January - The year started with me traveling .. I was in UAE on the 1st of Jan ... I missed the birthday of 2 of my good friends, but I was forgiven ... I was actually Not looking forward to the year but that’s changed now... on about the 3rd of Jan I traveled to Thailand ... It was amazing and fun .. But I hated the shopping for clothes part but I enjoyed buying a lot of weird things! I'm glad I got to see Thailand.

February - AIESEC work had just start, I helped with the recruitment marketing materials and OC-ed for the Desert Rose conference .. I am sure that there where more projects I worked on but this is all I can remember at the moment. These projects/Events stood out.

March - Oh March is a month to remember ... Going to Morocco MENA LDS .. I will never forget March '07 ... and I also remember helping John (an AIESECer from Australia and one of the 3 AIESECers that manages AIESEC Bahrain on a National Level) search for students abroad to fill in our first newly raised internship here in Bahrain. Words cannot explain what I felt in march. Another person I have to mention is my mate Lyna .. I guess she added to the magic of March (and February ..).

April - I know that there where things that happened in April .. recruitment was going on, and Handled my own Mini training session. But you could say April was a resting period for me.

May - Another month that was crazy, It started off with me going to the Bahrain International Travel Expo (BITE) representing my Beloved Organization AIESEC , Helped an AIESECer called Aysha with the marketing Material for an upcoming conference and she and other AIESECers are organizing, Then there was the induction capstone conference ( this was a conference for the new AIESEC members) , the FAMA Awards which was organized by my friend .. It was fun to attend, there was also AIESEC E-Board elections taking place .. I ran for the position Vice President of Exchange (on a Local Committee Level) ... Running for the VP position was nerve wrecking, I was so nervous on the day ... but I so happy because I got it! Lastly .. the last event of May was the Youth Round Table .. This is some thing that my mate John has been working on for a while, I was amazed to see how an idea had been brought to life .. I got a lot of motivation from that conference ..

Now I await to see what June brings .. I have a feeling it is going to be an amazing month as well…

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Morals, Morals and Morals.
I can't seem to get that word out of my head. To me morals and values are something are more big than religion. I dont know why but lately it's the first thing I think of when I get up, and the thoughts keep coming until I fall asleep. I dont know, maybe I am becoming religious without even realizing it ... well I have no idea, this is the only thing on my mind right now.

Thursday, May 24, 2007

What should I do? What should I do?
Been faced with a lot of tough decisions lately.
should I do something that will make me happy or should do the things that others think will make me happy? I'm really an easy going person, but lately I have been have trouble with whether I should do the correct thing for me or do the "morally correct thing", and the correct thing for me may not be the best for other people. I hate lying or being manipulative, plus I was never good at lying may be a bit ok with BS'ing but not lying. A lot of people have been telling me if you want to live a good and peaceful life you have to lie a little, Take what you want in anyway possible. Should I lie and manipulate people to my will? or should I just be honest and straight to the point? All I do have in my life are my morals ... and if I abandon them now then what happens next. Life would be so much easier if I just lied but I don't think I would be fully content with myself if I did lie ... in the end it is my morals and values that I do stick by. How can I tell these people that I am not want they want me to be? what path should I take to find my inner and outter peace ....

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Summer is back!

I not sure if I should jump in joy or sulk and curse. Although the heat may be excruciating one can't help but be happy. So many pool dates have been set, and many more to come. The fridge seems to be stock pilled with Ice cream and the Air conditioners are all on full blast...

Cursing the fact that I have work and university but hey my goal this summer is to have fun ....

Imagen ... taking over the living room ... I got resident playing on mute on the television ... Bleach playing on my laptop ... the AC switched on... full blast ... the room is not too bright but not too dull ... just laying around enjoying the fact that I am wasting time .. eating Ice cream while wrapped up in a blanket.... to me that sounds like a fun dream .. add some music to the background .. Drive by incubus ....

Sigh* that would be so cool to do this summer ... apart from pools and ice skating ... just relaxing ..

Friday, April 20, 2007

im loyal to coffee bean and tea leaf

4 months into this year have gone by so fast! University is out so been hanging out with my mates every night. We have made it our personal mission to search for the best coffee place here in bahrain. And .... we found it! " coffee bean and tea leaf " is the best! serious that place is amazing! Its so addictive that people could suffer from gluttony! God bless the creators of that company. What took you guys so long to start up in bahrain! And forget that the coffee is great, the tea is great also! I love you coffee bean and tea leaf .... you mini heaven on an island ... sip* hmm thats what i call good coffee

Saturday, April 7, 2007

" I am sad to leave this wonderful team but change is a fact of life , we do not get where we want to get without change. ".... Then left the greatest Manager I have known so far in my professional career. I have only had 2 general managers so far and both of them where extremes. One you couldnt help hating and one of them you couldnt help loving. We had celebrated when the one we hated had left and saddend for the one we love. But like he said change is a fact of life.... But excuse me for being a pessimist at the moment but i know that with him gone you can say we are pretty much screwed. Damn the office politics ...

But going back to my G.M leaving ... reminds me of the few people i will have to say goodbye too very soon. I dread that deeply. My good friend is going away to study. I honestly will not be used to having her not around. we practically lived in each others houses since grade 7. prob the hardest good bye. Unsure if she'll be back during summers tooo.

I also would have to say good bye to 3 other people too. one of them is a person who i have come deeply to respect. The other 2 i admire alot also.
I dnt think any of the people i have mentioned in this post actually know that played an important part into developing me into the person I am right now. I feel like I know the greatest people in the world and I had the oppourtunity to sit and spend alot of time with them.

very soon il be saying goodbye ... I hope the goodbye list doesnt increase...

Monday, March 26, 2007

the firsts of MENA LDS

The conference had so many firsts for me its was unbelievable ...

I wore my first AIESEC bahrain T-shirt
Ate my first dish of moroccan food
Had my first international room mates
Met my first of "international friends", countries that i have heard of but never met people from!
My first time to speak in front of a crowd of abouts 230 people without being scared
Took the train for the first time
sang the first MENA LDS song for the first time
Met some very inspirational people and actually connected with them
sang alot of arabic songs and I mean alottttttt
hosted a discussion group …. which I want to continue doing …
had wondering dinner with AIESEC in the USA .. thank you lyna and shereen for making me go to it! Im so glad I went!
got my first cowboy hat from my mexican friend .. god I love that hat … I wish I could wear it to work L
saw a blue jelly fish for the first time it looked pretty .. but highly deadly
was taking care of by people not from my family but did become a family to me ..

well there are alot more firsts of the MENA LDS but i one thing i loved about all my first is that I had someone form the bahraini delegate next to me sharing my first ...

and i guess i would just like to thank the bahraini delegates for adding on to the magic of this wonder full conference ...

In order of love, i thank the females :
Nasreen (my first love) 2. Aqeela (my second love) 3. Bint al khawaja 4. Renad (bint al khawaja's friend) 5. dana ( we no longer have a speaking problem ) 6. Aysha (woman power) 7. lyna (sorry i met nasreen first) 8. yasmine (it was great being bored next to u on the plane ) 9. Mariam Kamal (it was fun to randomly show up in ur room) 10. shereen (my last love)

You girls are the love of my life …

And guys inorder of memory :
Ali ( fluffy_onion_diesal), Ali ( yah alawi ..lalalla that song is still stuck in my head), terbo (hahhaha I think u where the first person to lose his voice ) , fix (u bought F1 to morocco), momo ( I like ur punishment ) , aseeri (it was fun watch james bond with ya) and ghassan (I saw u smile for the first time in the conference .. before that u where just serious ) ...

Thank u bahrain ... I dnt think we would have won best delegate of the conference if any of guys where missing ... And so with that I end my blog entry by saying " The best first I ever had was that Bahrain is the first country to win best delegated of the conference in the first MENA LDS ever ... setting an example for all other MENA countries " and im so lucky to just share it with all of the people above ...

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Sessions

Sessions for the MENA LDS where great, But the sessions that i will be mostly remember are the Bridging the Gap session and " the secret " I wish much more time could be allocated to these session!

Bridging the Gap is very important to me! Alot more than people know it! I aim to break down as many stereotypes as I can! Even my own personal stereotypes! And the MENA LDS really helped with breaking those stereotypes! Not only did I find that I had the wrong opinion about a certain group! I found out that they also had a wrong opinion about me, and personally it meant alot to mean to find out I myself have developed stereotypes without realizing it! and im glad I am now aware of it and when ever possible I would like to " bridge the Gap " between groups, countries or individuals. It is that important to me.

Going through the session "the secret" just reminded me the importance of being positive in any situation! And i generally am a very positive person but sometimes you just seem to forget that and concentrate on everything bad that has happened! But honestly I would rather say how fascinating after something bad has happened, then say why me! Why because your a much happier person when your positive then negative! If you manage to lose your money, and will in deep shit when you go home but your positive then your happy and when your happy you feel like you can take over the world (metaphorically speaking of coarse) or in simple terms deal with problems around you more easily. That is what the session "the secret" reminded me about. (although I can say I was a bit hesitant to apply the think positively idea in the begining cos I was an idiot I later on did and I worked well)

MENA LDS group activities!

There are only 2 group activities that will actually sick with me!
The bomb diffuse game and the carpet game! Oh how much fun i had in these 2 games!

First let me tell you about the bomb game!

My team lost miserably! we barely step on the grass before the faci's we shouting bomb exploded! It was hilarious (but had it been a real bomb we would have been screwed)! the one thing about the team was that they had high spirits! They didnt mind losing as long as they learnt something from it! so every time we failed we would do a roll call! I think we where the first to come up with a roll call that fitted our name.... I said a boom chicka boom ....
lol …..Team " the bomb " you will always remain in my memory!

Now the carpet game!

we had 20 people on a carpet and the objective of this game was to flip the carpet upside down without anybody's feet (or other body part) touching the areas outside the carpet! OMG it was a total train wreck! the bahraini delegates knew the solution but the other ones didnt want to hear the solution because they wanted to learn the lesson. So we shut up and OMG the things that happened in that game! people where crying from laughter when they where looking at us! i wish i have some pics! unfortunately i was with them doing the game and i had no camera! Imagine some of the girls where sitting on the guys shoulders to make more space for the others, and those poor girls keep getting thrown from one guy to another, the funniest part of all is when fix landed on his ass! It was one of those things you have to see.

breakfast, lunch, dinner and break timings at MENA LDS

these 4 timings in the day would be the most fun for me! Just to go out meet people and socialize with them. hearing their point of view on a particular, listening to the inspirational stories, oh and i heard a lot! At some point I would forget to eat because I was so interested in what the person next to me was telling me. good times. Now sitting back here in bahrain, and recalling all the sorts of conversations I have had during the MENA LDS, all i can say is that I will treasure moments like these for the rest of my life. I know i will be crossing paths with my MENA LDS friends at some point in my life. So farewell until our next supper together ... im sure that is also going to be a memorable one.

heading to morocco!

It was Wednesday 14th march and we gathered at the airport at 8 pm! the bahraini delegation was all set to go out to morocco to the MENA LDS conference. I had no idea that I was heading out to a life changing experience. I didnt know that I would inspired and be inspired, be motivated and be a motivator. In short I never knew what a difference it would have made, the people I would of met and the special moments I would have had.

you can say that this conference is and always will be the turning point of my life! and im glad i never knew my life is going to change because sometime we all fear the change. But in this case ... well you can just say it suprised me ....

Monday, March 5, 2007

It's Ok

Its ok ... let go, Everything is falling to pieces
Its ok I will be here, when your ready to piece up the pieces
Its ok, just let go. I will be here and you know.

Love,
Tima

Friday, March 2, 2007

Desert Rose Day 2 ( saturday )

Saturday started out with me waking up early and taking a hot shower … hmmm then heading back to the Desert Rose conference. My poor sister volunteered to take me both days and I thank her very much. Once we got to the tent, we decided to take the gals to the bathroom. That took about 1 hour of our time. An hour later, back in the tent and preparing for day 2 of the conference. We just need to register a few people in, as most of them registered the first day! Then it was time for day 2 of the conference to begin!!! Wahooo! Opening ceremony went well and sessions started. The sessions during the morning where mainly about facilitation. How to write up a session and how to present it. It was really fun and interesting to do as we had to write up a session for someone else and we also had to present somebody else’s session, This was the most beneficial to me and I really hope to put what I have learnt into practice soon! Lunch was cooked by our LCP Terbo!!! Surprising enough it tasted good! He must teach me how to cook like that. The afternoon sessions where focused on how to market AIESEC, and we took a look at the plans, what we are supposed to achieve by the end of each month. Sitting through these sessions made me think about how I can contribute to AIESEC Bahrain. The whole time I was thinking about how AIESEC Bahrain started and how it is currently and how will it be in the future.

The conference was really worth my time and I look forward to being a more active member and giving more of my time to events like these.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Desert Rose ( Friday ) A weekend to remember

Spent the last weekend with AIESEC, and was truly worth my time! It was the desert rose conference and I was a member of the OC (organizing committee) which gave me a chance to work with people from outside my group and I hope to do that more often. OCing with me was Mai and Reem, im really glad I worked with them, I got to know them. Mai is so easy going, her sense of humor is similar to mine. workin with her is just a breath of fresh air, and Reem well I tired to describe her in one word before be couldnt but I think I can say she is lively, she is just full of life really fun to be around and to work with (and go to the coldstore with). Friday started out with me waiting for almost an hour until our OC president came along (he didn't put up the signs which I spent hours making but I forgive him!!), headed to the tent (oh yeh incase you didn't know the conference was in the desert in a tent) As I entered the tent I was amused by the thought of technology in the desert even if I didn't show it, come on we where having power point presentations in a tent in the middle of nowhere! whats not amusing? Then it was straight off to registering the delegates. Although I was initially being assisted by sarah as the other OC member weren't there, registration was a mess, but later on got better as the other OCers came to the rescue. After all that was done the opening ceremony took place … This was memorable! We had the perfect chair for the conference! She was great! The opening ceremony got us right in to the mood for this conference. We then had a message from our Romanian friend Mada … inspiring message. The conference flow went something like this. Our facilitator would give a speech and then divide us into groups and give us cases to work on. This worked effectively! I was part of the fire flames. My group members were mariam, ahmed and ghasan! It was fun to work with them. Mariam indeed deserves to be called a fire flame. This day was mainly focused on being a change agent. I wished we were given more time for the change agent characteristics, which ones we have and which ones we need to develop. After that session we had a prayer break, me and renad spent an hour together just driving to use the bathroom, using the bathroom and coming back ,as there where no bathrooms at the camp! As soon as I got back to the tent after my 1 hour long bathroom break! I was off to help Mai arrange the lunch for the delegates and the Faci ( facilitators), where I spent a good 15 mins washing apples! Lunch was served and we sat down to eat and joined the conversation(very interesting). Once lunch was over we cleaned up and headed to outside the tents to do group activities! We all where split into to 2 groups. Sahar was the faci ( I think that's the term) for our group (the good looking people), and I honestly have to admit that we have grown a lot closer as a team! We completed all of the challenges given to us, when compare to my first NATCO where we didn't, It is a big improvement. I can honestly trust the Bahraini AIESECers and I really do feel very comfortable with them. At the end of the day I feel like I can take what I learnt from this conference and apply it. The first day of the conference was a success, It ran so smoothly and there was a bit bad time management (we started late) but we covered a lot despite that.

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Saturday and Sunday with AIESEC

Saturday 10th Feb
AIESEC had its first parents dinner! (Cant wait for the second) I was giving the chance to speak to the parents about exchange! Damn that was like my first speech in front of people I knew nothing about! It was soooo scary! But Hell I would do it again and again and again! Not because I enjoy shaking and panicking but because the AIESEC team is always there to support me! And I guess it is good to have so much support! And eventually I will become good at speaking. But it was not only me that was nervous there where a few others like me and we really did step up!
clap for ourselves!
Sunday 11th Feb
Selection of an Exchange leader! I was one of the persons running! WOW what an experience. Being interviewed by your team mates! Running against a team mate that supports you! and the lonnnnnnnnng wait before the results! the wait was the worst part! But im looking forward to them now, as I have this feeling that it will become apart of my life! Anyways I did lose but I was so happy after the results, Not because I lost but because It was a kind situation where I could benefit if I won or lost! But still even if im not leader I will put all my efforting into exchange! It is something that I want to see sucessful in AIESEC Bahrain!

Monday, February 12, 2007

welcoming 2007

After 1 month and 12 days into my new year i have finnally decided to accept and embrace the new year! Yippy huh? Reflecting back 2006 and thinking about how much of a train wreck it was, I cant help admitting that I did learn something new, Even if it was forced. But im picking up pieces from the 2006 train wreck and head for 2007 by foot! Slow but safe.
So what have i learnt from 2006? hmmmm that if your going to run away from home remember to take ur wallet this time and try doing it on a weekend not week day as you have work the next day. There is no point of taking pictures in the dark ... cos then all you will be able to see are eyes. Oh yeh i also learnt about how much batelco really sucks! no wait i think i learnt that a few days ago ....
anyways moving on .... !?! Oh yeh so im welcoming 2007
here at work, dead bored ... but after i had an interesting saturday and sunday.... welcome 2007 and bring it on, i guess im prepared for it. Lots of new faces, lots of new experiences. and the same old people to share 'em with.
What more can i ask for in life .... well maybe a driving instructor and an orange pillow that i have been dying to find but i guess that is about it.