Questions about dreaming chasing

“Nana...how come being happy and making your dreams come true are two different things? Even now, I still don't know why...” ― Ai Yazawa



Lets talk about dreams, and I am not talking about the ones you have when your safely tucked away in bed, sleeping away life.
No I am talking about the ones you yearn for or better yet the ones you ache for, the ones you lose sleep over.
I was always under the impression that if you achieve your dreams you will achieve happiness, but I have come to see that it may not be the case all the time.

Essentially we are already happy and content, even if we are to debate whether we are really truly happy or not, without achieving those said dreams, I think that we can come to the conclusion that because we are happy and content right now, we don’t have the urge to go chase our dreams, and that is maybe why, sadly not everyone’s dreams get realized.
What I mean to say is, how many times have we come accross a person that said "Well I would like so and so, but if it doesnt happen I am alright with that" or seen a person that clearly has a vision yet isnt doing anything to achieve it.

In my opinion I think that they are like that not because of fear, or anything negative, but because they just have too much positive things going on for them that it doesnt make sense to chase their dreams.

You see chasing dreams, its not a simple easy process, it involves a lot of work, a lot of set backs and disappointments, a lot of dedication and persistence, and an insanely huge amount of faith you have in yourself and in the universe, but the end result is rewarding.
That is exactly why we admire those who set out and chaise their dreams, it is also why we get inspired by them, and this is also why people give up on their dreams as well.
So here is what I am trying to ask , Is your current happiness and comfort in life worth more than that of what your dreams could provide you? Can you been happy and have life’s comfort while chasing your dreams? and is it Ok not to achieve your dreams?

Thinking out loud

Reflecting Back .. just some random thoughts

Sitting at my desk at work, counting down the days before the year ends, I am really thankful as to how this year has turned out.

Currently listening to Orinoco flow by Enya, work will end in about an Hour. After that I have a mid term and extra classes. Currently my schedule is over packed with alot of things to do.

Thinking back, the year was filled with alot of memorable occasions, more like memorable places or conversations that I can always go back to reflect on. When the year began the only 2 goals I set for myself are to get my license and to try and find sponsorship for university. I am sad to admit that I did not do both, however the time I spent doing alot of other things, to me right now I feel was well worth it.

Now my year is ending, what really happened last year shouldn't really matter right? Or should it?

I guess I should sit with myself on the 31st and have a big reflect ... I should probably use the eid holidays to set expectations and goals for myself for next year ... and oh yeah the license and the sponsorship are 2 of the many things I should do.

So hats off to a rocky 07 ... 41 days left for me to enjoy the year.

If I could sing out a song right now for you, Just explain how im feeling it would be Wind by Akeboshi .. lyric are below

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't try with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't try with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

What should I do? What should I do?
Been faced with a lot of tough decisions lately.
should I do something that will make me happy or should do the things that others think will make me happy? I'm really an easy going person, but lately I have been have trouble with whether I should do the correct thing for me or do the "morally correct thing", and the correct thing for me may not be the best for other people. I hate lying or being manipulative, plus I was never good at lying may be a bit ok with BS'ing but not lying. A lot of people have been telling me if you want to live a good and peaceful life you have to lie a little, Take what you want in anyway possible. Should I lie and manipulate people to my will? or should I just be honest and straight to the point? All I do have in my life are my morals ... and if I abandon them now then what happens next. Life would be so much easier if I just lied but I don't think I would be fully content with myself if I did lie ... in the end it is my morals and values that I do stick by. How can I tell these people that I am not want they want me to be? what path should I take to find my inner and outter peace ....